My brother was five years elder to me, but only three grades ahead. Not that his tryst with schooling began late, it was his devotion to learning that dissuaded him from making hasty progress. How could the great monument of knowledge stand tall without a strong foundation? Hence the motto of spending more than a year in each division.
My upbringing was solely his responsibility and for me, his was obviously the final word. How could I ever think of defying him? He was so studious … always engrossed in books. I often found fancy cats, dogs and birds drawn on few pages of his note books…. could well have been his idea of taking a break perhaps.
Questions & Answers
- How does the author explain his elder brother’s failing in classes? Does he really mean it? What does he really mean?The author says that his elder brother was a personality who wished to build a strong educational foundation. Although he took more than a single year to pass from one class to the next, it was for a greater purpose. In fact the author knows that his elder brother was a slow learner yet in order to defend him, the author gives his elder brother the aura of a hardworking personality.
- Why couldn’t the author think of correcting his brother?
Many a times he wrote a single name several times over, or scribbled few sentences that didn’t make any sense to me. For instance, once I found the following etched in his notebook: Special, Ameena, brothers, because, Radheshyam, Mr. Radheshyam, one hour…
At the end of this trail was the image of a man. I broke my head over this creation but failed to unravel the mystery. Nor did I dare to ask him. He was in the ninth standard; I was only in the fifth grade…how could I attempt to dissect such intricate stuff?
I never lost a single chance to rush to the playground, throwing pebbles in the air; flying paper butterflies. Climbing up and down the stairs, riding the hostel gate like a motorcar….I had great fun, but back in the hostel room, an eerie silence invariably unnerved me.
My brother would fling the first question rudely “Where were you?” My answer was a meek silence, conveying the acceptance of my crime. He would then proceed to caution me in his inimitable style. “Learn English in this fashion, and you had it. This is no child’s play dear. Slog for months and you barely get to reach the shore, even scholars never take it easy.
And I ask, do you not see me toiling , poring over books, if you fail to see, that’s your fault. There are umpteen plays, fairs, cricket matches everyday, have you ever seen me taking a break. And despite this devotion, I spend more than two years in each grade. It takes me two years, you will probably spend a lifetime. If you want to waste your life thus, better go home and play Gulli danda* to your heart’s content. Why blow Dada’s** hard –earned money for nothing?”
I would burst into tears after this, guilty that I was. He would hurt me with such choicest words. For a second, I would be tempted to give up…why not go home… I was happy being a dullard but god save me from this struggle… But all tension vanished the next moment to make way for some fresh resolve…. to burn the midnight oil, a new time table sans fun and frolics…. Get up at 6 sharp, finish breakfast… 6 to 8 English, 8 to 9 Math, 9 to 9.30 History, followed by lunch and school. Back home at 3.30, half an hour rest, 4 to 5 Geography, 5 to 6 Grammar, stroll round the hostel half an hour, 6.30 to 7 English composition, followed by dinner, 8 to 9 translations, 9 to 10 Hindi, 10 to 11 revision and then retire to bed.
Making a time table is one thing, sticking to it is another. The breach began from day one. The bouncing football, the fervor of Kabbadi, and the pace of volleyball all pulled me back to the playground. And gone were all oaths, all resolve … The annual results were out. I stood first, he failed to clear. Now just two grades separated us. For a second, I was tempted to confront him right away. “And whatever happened to your penance? What do we see?”
But his crestfallen face made me think otherwise. Rage made way for compassion. But yes, now I had a newfound confidence and the guilt was gone for good. Probably, he had guessed it. Yet, he got his chance one day at the lunch table. “So you feel you have conquered the world. My dear fellow, this is just the beginning. History is replete with stories of pride getting the better of the best. Remember what happened to the might of Ravana – the invincible demon king. What did you learn from his story? ”
“Clearing an exam is one thing, knowledge is another. You were lucky this time, but it can’t happen every time. Don’t judge me by my score, wait till you reach my grade. Algebra and Geometry will drive you crazy and god save you from the atrocities of British history. Just try remembering emperors by names …there have been eight Henries alone. Mention Henry the VII as VIII and you lose all marks… And we have dozens of James and Williams, and countless Charles…where are you dear? And every name troubles you again with I, II, III, and IV…
Had they asked me for options and I would have thrown up countless names. Why stick to the same name again and again? Geometry is another torture…. write A, B, C as A, C, B and you get a big zero. I just don’t get the point…Daal, Rice, Chapati or Rice, Daal, Chapati…is it not the same…Then why kill poor students for the goddamed sequence? But if you want to clear exams, you better suffer this nonsense. Write an essay on “the value of time” in not less than 400 words. What kind of a joke is that? Common sense has it — say what you have to in 3-4 lines and move ahead in life. But no, 400 words please. Isn’t that anarchy?
So you see, my darling brother, you have a long way to go. learn to remain grounded; else you will soon land with a thud. Yes, I have flunked but I am still your elder brother and I know the world better.” I was getting late for school, waiting for this painful discourse to end. His ghastly picture of higher grades made me lose my appetite. Somehow, I tugged along, my daily routine intact. Annual exams were round the corner again. I cleared again, he flunked again…I had no idea how, but I had topped again. And he had failed miserably…This time, he was in real bad shape…face devoid of color, eyes sunk deep…I felt sorry for him. And then a wicked thought crossed my mind. One more year and we could end up in the same grade. no no… How could my mind be so devilish? I crushed the nasty thought.
But now he was no more the same brother I knew. He let go all opportunities to pull my ears and generally kept off me. May be, he realized he had lost the right. This made me even more independent and I roamed about at will. One pleasant evening, I set about running after colorful kites. I was one among the army of 10-12 lads carrying bamboo sticks as weapons. Our mission was to collect as many fallen kites as we could. We were oblivious of the surroundings when I suddenly bumped into my brother. He was probably on his way back home from the bazaar. He caught me by the wrist and asked tersely, “Are you out of your mind? Roaming like a vagabond with these hooligans. If not anything, have some respect for your grade. I know of several eight-graders of yester years who made name as magistrates, collectors, editors, leaders and scholars. And look at yourself? You are intelligent no doubt, but where’s your self-respect?
I can read your mind all right. You feel you have caught up with me and that I have no right to question you. But you are wrong. I am five years elder to you and will always remain so…This truth will prevail and even God can’t challenge it…whether you get into my grade or even move ahead. And, thanks to the kind of examiners we have these days, that’s indeed possible. . .” he added with a wry smile.
“I have loads of worldly knowledge that’s way above academic grades. Did our Amma*** and Dada ever go to school? The government in America, constellations in space, wives of Henry the VIII, they may not know, but can we ever match their wisdom in worldly matters. Tomorrow, if I fall sick, you will surely panic and send a telegram to Dada, but Dada in your place, would never react like that. He will first try some home remedy, only if it fails, will he call for a doctor.”
“Leave health issues, he paused for effect to resume again, “those are grave matters, can we plan our monthly budgets? Every rupee that Dada sends us, does it not vanish by the 22nd of the month? Are we not left waiting for the next remittance? Did you know that Dada raised a family of nine in less than half of what we blow up?”
“Look at our headmaster. He has an MA, that too from Oxford. He earns a handsome Rs. 1000 as salary. But who runs his house? His aged mother. There goes his degree to the bin. So you see, do away with that false pride. You are nowhere near me.”
He then raised his hand consumed by rage “And I will not hesitate to thrash you if need be. I know you’ll hate me for this.” I was speechless and an intense, queer feeling swept over me. I could not bear the sight of my poor brother, shaking nervously, and losing his mind with every word he uttered. As tears trickled down my cheeks, I only managed to say, “No, I don’t hate you, it’s all my undoing. Every word of what you say is true. Please forgive me.”
He hugged me instantly. His shaky voice was now barely audible. “I am not against flying kites, my love. Even I am tempted, but I am helpless. If I take it easy, who will look after you?” Just then, we saw a kite above us, utterly helpless, cut reins hanging in shame, on its mournful journey down. Tall that he was, my brother caught the twine and ran towards the hostel, frantic and fast… I followed suit, pacing after him.
Questions & Answers
The elder brother was not good at academics. How does the narrator convey this ?
The speaker’s brother is not very good at academics. Though his brother was five years elder to him, in school he is only three years ahead of him. The speaker justifies it by saying that maybe his brother wanted strong foundation and hence studied each class for more than a year. The speaker says that often he would find drawings of cats, dogs and birds on his brother’s books which could mean he takes breaks in between studies.
What was the difference in the routines of the two brothers?
While the narrator’s brother slogged every day in front of books and stayed away from the playground, the narrator would have lot of fun, throwing pebbles in the air, flying paper butterflies, riding the hostel gate like a motor car, climbing up and down the staircase etc.
Describe the timetable drawn up by the narrator. How were the intent and reality completely different?
After his brother scolds him hard one day, the narrator draws up a rigorous time-table for himself without including any games and sports that he loves so much. But he doesn’t keep to the new schedule even for one day as the playground beckons to him with all the fun and frolic which makes him forget his books and run back to the ground.
What was the impact of the elder brother’s lectures on the narrator?
Whenever his brother gave his sermons, the narrator would feel guilty that he was committing some grave mistake by playing and having fun. He would also feel like going back home and not bother about studies at all and lead a happy life without having to go to school again.
How did the elder brother’s sermons change when he failed for the first time?
His brother was depressed when he heard that he had failed while his younger brother had passed. For some time he stopped giving his sermons. But soon he started bullying his younger brother by scaring him how hard each class was going to be than before. He also cautions him not to feel too proud of himself lest his pride will make him feel arrogant.
What was the elder brother’s reaction to failing for the second time?
When he failed a second time, his elder brother stopped bothering him much. He also stopped pulling his ears and generally kept to himself.
Reading Between the Lines
- Was the elder brother’s admonishing nature his defense mechanism? How can you say so? (2 marks)